Do you ever wonder if you have a sixth sense? Or if such things exist? Logic tells me it doesn't, but experience tells me something else.
As a little kid, I loved ghost stories. Still do, actually. My cousin and I go see every ridiculous horror film possible. Exorcism of Emily Rose, The Rite, Chernobyl Diaries, Sinister, you name it. I love American Horror Story. We even went on an overnight ghost adventure in a haunted prison! Something about what is unseen and the battle between benevolent and manevolent forces and where they come from fascinates, not scares me.
Still, most of the time, I feel most of the occurrances that people claim can be debunked. I don't do the fortune teller thing, tarot cards, palm reading, oujia boards, devining rods, big foot, etc. You can't bend spoons with your mind. You can however, weaken spoons, and then bend them with the heat and slight movement of your fingers. Just a trick I learned in Paranormal Psych. You know, when I wasn't playing kings in the KDR suite instead of going to night class.
Yet, several times a year, I have slight premonitions in dreams. The first time I can recall, I was in high school. I dreamed that I was in Biology II, and we were listening to cassette tape, but the volume wouldn't go high enough, and we kept yelling at my classmate to turn it up. Wouldn't you know, the next day, we were watching something on the projector and the classmate whose desk it was on kept getting yelled at to turn the volume up. The same classmate in the dream.
Sometimes it's super specific such as that. Other times it's subtle. A comment in passing, running into a friend who I'd randomly dreamed about, a similar story on the news. I used to get really freaked out; I first started experiencing deja vu when I was about 10, and having dreams where I interacted with loved ones who have passed. Things like that were scary and confusing. Once I made peace with it, I wasn't anxious about it anymore.
What's the explanation for all these things? Coincidence? What is it in our subconscious that gives us these feelings or clues? I dream nightly. Apparently we all do, but most of us don't remember our dreams. I do for the most part, and 9 times out of 10 my dreams are totally irrelevant and off the wall. Seriously. One of my friends' favorite "Stacy" stories is the time I woke up after a particularly disturbing dream about my biggest fear, Nazis. My arms were covered in bruises. Yes, I know this fear is irrational and outdated by about 70 years.And I'm the picture of the Aryan race. But this is the type of stuff in my subconscious apparently. I desperately cannot shut my brain off. Sometimes it takes me a long time just to fall asleep because I'm so much inside of my head.
Regardless of the probablility of the sixth sense, is it a gift or a curse to be so pensive? Sometimes I wish my instincts weren't so good and that I could stop thinking for a while. Ignorance is bliss. Right?
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